Any one of us(stupid mistake)

I've been letting you down, down
Girl I know I've been such a fool
Giving in to temptation
I should have played it cool
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand
It can happen to anyone of us
Anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us
Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe meI can't take, my heart will break
'Cos I made a stupid mistake A stupid mistake

This is one of Gareth Gates's hits. It echoes how I feel inside.

There was a time that I now realise I was so pointless in my life. I do not have an clear goal I can pursue endlessly, and I just keep on blaming why things don’t work out for me. Thus formed the vicious cycle that plagued me for at least half a year.

Since I was away from home, I often explore the depths of my soul and think of some heavy stuff I seldom considered before, and admittedly, I can’t express how regretful I am to those rebellious days. Sarcastically, there is always the silver lining. Those soul-exploring has made me a better person I could hardly realize half year ago. Even though I am confident that I am more mature and considerate to others now, I dare not forget the mistakes I made in the first place. If I don’t understand myself in the past, there is always the obligation to fix it right now, and probably, there are rainbows lie in the future. I will always pray to god, but realizing here on earth god’s work must be our own.